Yeah, Im quitting. After my last post and seeing all of the such sweet things you said about me, I decided not to quit. But then something happened last night which made me finally tell myself I need to leave. In case you didnt guess, yet another post got locked because of me. This was a post by one of my friends- actually, someone I had considered one of my best wiki friends since Mallows left. She made a post advertising her YT channel, and I said that advertising was against the rules. She called me a meanie and made a mad face which Im assuming was a joke but I wasnt sure so I just said oop. Another person replied saying Really Clover? I didnt know that. So I suggested she rereads the rules in case she forgot more (I swear I wasnt trying to be rude). Then the creator of the post, who I hadnt even been replying to when I said the other person should look at the rules, said K lmao. This may just be me, but the tone of this seemed rude. I responded by saying the word Oof. The creator of the post said 🤷 Jeez sorry, and, as you already guessed, things escalated. Im sorry if I was snappy in my replies. I wasnt meaning to. I just didnt want my friend to get into trouble for advertising. Ive honestly been feeling like crap whenever Im on the wiki. I get into so many arguments for the stupidest things. I have literally been told I get into a lot of arguments, as if I didnt know that. Whenever I try to fix myself, I make it into another argument. And the worst thing is. So many people are literally TERRIFIED of saying ANYTHING to me now without thinking Ill freak out at them. And I know, it IS my fault. But I guess before, I just never realized how my arguments are ACTUALLY affecting people not even in the arguments. Do any of you know how bad it can make a person realizing her friends are literally SCARED TO BE HONEST WITH HER? It sucks! And I dont want to put any of you, or myself, through that anymore. I post so many rants and vents on here, and I know youre all tired of that. St this point Im honestly scared to make any post because Im afraid Ill make it into some kind of argument. I'm still going to be very active on ajpw and YT, so if you want to keep in contact, just message me on my wall or tag me in a post to find out my usernames if you dont know them already. Im going to be active on here for the next few days, to slowly wean myself off of Fandom and get all my goodbyes in. Heres some specific ones for my closest friends or people I just want to say something to.
@Slowsofa AJPW - Thank you so much for being there for me, even back before I was Cloversplash. You are so insanely loyal and amazing, I literally strive to be like you one day.
@Rbvfbv - Bruh.. I have no words. Like, even when you saw how rude and toxic I was, you STILL stuck by me. You were such an amazing friend, and Im sorry Im leaving you.
@Silverxroses - I am so sorry for all the trouble I caused. I swear, I just didnt want you to get into trouble. You were always such a great friend and if you want to keep in touch, we can always talk on yt or aj. Also Im still trying to get the sheep cloak :)
@Pilløw Fluff - I know you didnt really think of me as your friend, but your art is so amazing and I hope to be even half as good as you one day.
To all the staff if you see this- Sorry for all the reports ofe Im sure you got. Cynder, you are an amazing admin and Im sorry for being rude. Dizney, you were always eho I reported my troubles to, and you never got tired of how many things I reported. Thank you. Popping, you werent staff long but you were still a great person. To all the other staff, you are so great as well.
Sorbet (someone please tag them I cant remember their user-) Im still making your free art. When its done Ill just post the speedpaint on my YT channel, Cloversplash Draws.
@Ismenafairytaledream - Youre so kind and sweet! Also youre so pretty. You were so mature and calm all the time as well.
@XxDolphinxX - You are SO nice. Like, seriously. You have been nothing but loyal and kind and amazing to me throughout my entire time here. I am so grateful to you for that. Now give me your ref so I can draw you >:)
@JunoMew - Not sure if you're unblocked or not yet. But it was nice spamming with you :)
Sorry for giving mini speeches or whatever to you all
If I didnt mention you here, Im sorry. Im crying and legit can barely remember anyone ngl. But trust me, you all deserve to be up here (I dont mean this in a bad way). Thank you all so much for an amazing time here. I was only here for a few months, but it was great.
And Mallows, if you ever see this, Im sorry. Im still up to the same stuff as when we met all that time ago, with all my drama. But you were ALWAYS the BEST friend Ive had online. As Season, as Mallows, as Wonders. Even before I was Cloversplash, you didnt shut me out. You never revealed anything I didnt want you to. You are the sweetest, kindest, gentlest, greatest, most amazing person. You deserve more than the best in life.
I have a lot more to say but ngl Im crying writing this so bye.
Sorry for typos